Over two weeks ago, I saw this spider sitting in her web in the dark corner of the room under my desk. She's actually quite tiny, only about the size of a nickel. Normally when I see one, I get my portable vacuum cleaner and zap! This time, though, I
contemplated her for a bit.
There's actually nothing to watch. She just sits there. So, I let her alone.
The next day, there she still was, in exactly the same position. Just hanging
there. That day came and went.
The next day I came to my desk, and there she sat, in the exact same place, and in the same position. This went on for a few more days.
Then, we took a
ministry trip to speak at a convention in Denver. We were gone over 5 days. When I came back to my office, there she still was!
What does she do? Nothing. She just sits there. What does she think about? Or, does she even think at all? What does she remember? Probably nothing. She doesn't ever remember growing up and playing with her brothers
and sisters. If she came across one of them now, she'd probably eat him...or her. She didn't go to school. No memories of holidays. No laughter. No family meals. No TV. No sports games to enjoy. No social life. No vacations. Nothing.
Her existence revolves around spinning a bit of a web by instinct, then sitting and waiting for a vibration. She
doesn't anticipate eating. No smell of dinner cooking. No variety of food. When she catches a bug, she simply suck it dry, and that's it. No seasoning. No dinner rolls with butter. No blueberry pie with sugar crumb topping for dessert. Just bug juice.
If there's a vibration, it means that something might have gotten stuck in her web.
Either that or it's the end of the vacuum extension. She'll either eat something, or wind up in a bag of dust and other dead spiders, though she has no idea what they are. Nor does she care. She just dies...even though she has no idea what dying is.
What an existence! continued....
